IF THIS WAS A MOVIE by TAYLOR SWIFT
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footstep on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not here
Every night, since that day, It's like forever. It has been what five or six days but I really can't tell. It's like dying without even killing myself. The feeling of sadness is always there even if I have so many friends who can comfort me. I tell them I'm okay but is it for real? Syempre hindi. Parang pinipiga yung puso ko. Pinipilit kong wag ng umiyak at halatang fake ang ngiti ko. Laging maga ang mata ko at hindi ako makakakain. Masarap ang amoy pero hindi ko siya gusto. Hindi ako masaya.
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinking 'bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
Time stood still and I had you
It keeps on repeating. Kahit sa mga maliliit na bagay. Yung sakit. Yung saya. Yung lungkot. Yung tuwa. Yung mga nakakaloka. Nakakakilig. Nakakaiyak. Yung lahat ng memory. Pati yung comment mo sa pagtawa ko. Hindi ko mapigilang magmukhang baliw. Nanonood ako ng praybeyt benjamin, tumatawa pero at the same time umiiyal. Bawat memory, it pains me kasi masaya ako nun. Masaya tayo nun. Hindi ko napipigilang umiyak at the same time I wish I could just stay there. when I still have you. When there's no doubt that you are mine. If only I could, I will. Kasi mas masaya ako dun kaysa ngayon.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside till I came out
I want you back in my life if it's still possible. If it's right to still hope. If only I could still have you. Sana nga para na lang siyang movie, yung alam mong babalik pa rin siya because movies always have the happiest ending. Na sana siya na ang tinatawag nilang "Destiny" or ka-love team mo. I wish this is easier.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
I know that we could work it out somehow
Maybe if you'd given my proposal a chance. Maybe if you didn't close your heart agad, siguro hindi ganito ang ending. Kung ikaw pa rin ang pinakamatiyaga at pinaka-open na taong nakilala ko, siguro hindi na tayo hahantong sa ganito. Kung sinabi mo lang lahat. Kung sinubukan mo lang. Kung hindi ka lang nag-"assume" sa magiging reaction ko, siguro naayos pa to. Together.
I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Coz nothing like this ever happened to them
Yes, people change pero there's a process. Naiwan ako dito dahil nabigla ako. Sana you've given me enough clue. Sana pinaramdam mo pa. Sana hindi mo ko ginulat na "pak" ganun lang yun. Ang hirap na iniisip mo yung nagawa mong mali. Kung bakit biglang ganun? Kung bakit biglang bumagsak ang mundo ko. Para akong inagawan ng oxygen habang nasa ilalim ako ng dagat. Habang eneenjoy ang lahat ng nangyayari then suddenly I have to struggle alone. To find air. To find ways to be alive again.
Now I'm pacing down the hall
Chasing down the street
Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothings gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose
You said nothings gonna change. You take away my insecurities by loving me. You made me feel loved. Akala ko wala ng magbabago. Akala ko kaya na natin lahat. Nagpropose ka pa noon. Sinabi mo na walang magbabago. Akala ko kakayanin natin ang lahat ng dadaan. Akala ko maso-solve natin lahat ng problema. Kakayanin natin kasi magkasama tayo but you left me. You let me fight alone ng hindi ko nalalaman. You caught me off guard.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'till I came out
I always thought you'd understand. You'd know why. Naisip ko na yung problema, it's a cycle. Hindi masaya kasi hindi na nagkakaintindihan. Hindi nagkakaintindihan kaya nagiging impulsive yung desisiyon. Nagtatantrums dahil sa desisyon na yun kaya nag-aaway, at yun ang cause ng pagiging hindi masaya. Hindi natin nagawang pagbigyan ang isa't-isa. Hindi natin narinig yung mga needs ng isa't-isa. Hindi natin napahalagahan ang sinasabi natin. Hindi man lang natin naisip na sa isang relationship, vital ang communication. That we should hear each other out. Na dapat iniintindi natin yung isa't-isa.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You could, you could, if you just say you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
You said you're sorry. Napatawad na kita dahil hindi naman ako nagalit o nagtampo sayo. How could I, diba? Hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit hindi mo ko maintindihan. Sana nagsorry ka na lang kasi hindi tayo nagkaintindihan. Sana yung sorry na yun para sa impulsive mong desisyon. Sana yung sorry na yun kasi hindi mo ako kayang mawala sa buhay mo. Sana yun yung dahilan nun. Sana hindi lang dahil sa nangyari nung araw na yun. Sana iba na lang yung dahilan, mas matutuwa pa ko.
If you're out there, If you're somewhere,If you're moving on
I've been waiting for you, Wary since since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I say
Gusto ko lang bumalik sa dati. Yung laging masaya. Yung laging nagkakaintindihan. Yung hindi mahirap kausapin yung isa't-isa. Yung kahit anong mangyari, hindi nakakalimutan ang isa't-isa. Yung marunong magsorry hindi pataasan ng pride. Yung nagbibigayan at hindi nagbabangayan. Yung bawat isa may pang-intindi. Yung hindi nagsasawa at hindi nagkakainisan dahil paulit-ulit. Yung basta masaya. kontrahin man ng lahat, basta ang mahalaga nagkakaintindihan. Basta may TIWALA sa isa't-isa. Tiwalang kakayanin lahat-lahat.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would before you said, it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now
Kung ako ang tatanungin, gusto kong bumalik sa normal. Yung lahat ng effort napapansin. Yung lahat ng nabanggit sa taas ginagawa. Yung limitado ang away. Yung lahat kayang patawarin ng simpleng I love you at i'm sorry ng isa't-isa. Sana bumalik yung mga panahong, hindi mo natitiis kapag umiiyak ako. That you would do everything to make me smile. Na alam mo kung naiinis ako, nagagalit, o masaya kapag bigla akong tumatahimik, Yung mga pagkakataong nag-eeffort ka pang alamin ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Na pinipilit mong alamin kahit yung mga nakatago sa puso ko. Yung assurance.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Alam kong huli na pero sasabihin ko pa rin. Nireregret ko ang lahat ng impulsiveness ko nung birthday ni Yssa. Inaamin kong may mali ako. I assumed things at nagtantrums ako yun ay dahil pakiramdam ko hindi ako mahalaga. Hindi ako napapahalagahan ng tama. Inaamin ko na nginatngat ako ng inggit. Nainis ako sa mga hindi mo nagawa na nagagawa nila.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You could, you could, if you just say you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
Sa hindi ko paghawak sa kamay mo. Sa hindi ko paghalik sayo. Sana maiballik ko. Kung alam ko lang na yun na ang huli, baka niyakap pa kita. Baka mas tinitigan pa kita. Yung tipong pakiramdam mo na, may malaking tigyawat na tumutubo sa mukha mo o may gagambang gumagapang pababa sa noo mo. Baka mas naging masaya pa ko. If I can take it back, I would. I would have smiled more. I would have savor the moment. I would have hugged you more often and I could have whispered more 'I love you's to you.
You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending?
Oh, I thought you'd be here by now, whoa
Thought you'd be here by now
But I guess, everything has to end. Hindi ako sumusuko at hindi rin ako lumalaban. Hahayaan ko na lang lahat. Kung ano man ang mangyayari sa mga susunod na araw, bahala na si God. Kung maka-move on, go. Kung hindi, eh di hindi. Hindi ko pipilitin ang sarili ko sa bagay na ako mismo hindi ko alam ang desisyon. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako lulugar. Bahala na si God. he will handle everything for me.
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Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footstep on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not here
Every night, since that day, It's like forever. It has been what five or six days but I really can't tell. It's like dying without even killing myself. The feeling of sadness is always there even if I have so many friends who can comfort me. I tell them I'm okay but is it for real? Syempre hindi. Parang pinipiga yung puso ko. Pinipilit kong wag ng umiyak at halatang fake ang ngiti ko. Laging maga ang mata ko at hindi ako makakakain. Masarap ang amoy pero hindi ko siya gusto. Hindi ako masaya.
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinking 'bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
Time stood still and I had you
It keeps on repeating. Kahit sa mga maliliit na bagay. Yung sakit. Yung saya. Yung lungkot. Yung tuwa. Yung mga nakakaloka. Nakakakilig. Nakakaiyak. Yung lahat ng memory. Pati yung comment mo sa pagtawa ko. Hindi ko mapigilang magmukhang baliw. Nanonood ako ng praybeyt benjamin, tumatawa pero at the same time umiiyal. Bawat memory, it pains me kasi masaya ako nun. Masaya tayo nun. Hindi ko napipigilang umiyak at the same time I wish I could just stay there. when I still have you. When there's no doubt that you are mine. If only I could, I will. Kasi mas masaya ako dun kaysa ngayon.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside till I came out
I want you back in my life if it's still possible. If it's right to still hope. If only I could still have you. Sana nga para na lang siyang movie, yung alam mong babalik pa rin siya because movies always have the happiest ending. Na sana siya na ang tinatawag nilang "Destiny" or ka-love team mo. I wish this is easier.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
I know that we could work it out somehow
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
But If this was a movie you'd be here by nowMaybe if you'd given my proposal a chance. Maybe if you didn't close your heart agad, siguro hindi ganito ang ending. Kung ikaw pa rin ang pinakamatiyaga at pinaka-open na taong nakilala ko, siguro hindi na tayo hahantong sa ganito. Kung sinabi mo lang lahat. Kung sinubukan mo lang. Kung hindi ka lang nag-"assume" sa magiging reaction ko, siguro naayos pa to. Together.
I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Coz nothing like this ever happened to them
Yes, people change pero there's a process. Naiwan ako dito dahil nabigla ako. Sana you've given me enough clue. Sana pinaramdam mo pa. Sana hindi mo ko ginulat na "pak" ganun lang yun. Ang hirap na iniisip mo yung nagawa mong mali. Kung bakit biglang ganun? Kung bakit biglang bumagsak ang mundo ko. Para akong inagawan ng oxygen habang nasa ilalim ako ng dagat. Habang eneenjoy ang lahat ng nangyayari then suddenly I have to struggle alone. To find air. To find ways to be alive again.
Now I'm pacing down the hall
Chasing down the street
Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothings gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose
You said nothings gonna change. You take away my insecurities by loving me. You made me feel loved. Akala ko wala ng magbabago. Akala ko kaya na natin lahat. Nagpropose ka pa noon. Sinabi mo na walang magbabago. Akala ko kakayanin natin ang lahat ng dadaan. Akala ko maso-solve natin lahat ng problema. Kakayanin natin kasi magkasama tayo but you left me. You let me fight alone ng hindi ko nalalaman. You caught me off guard.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'till I came out
I always thought you'd understand. You'd know why. Naisip ko na yung problema, it's a cycle. Hindi masaya kasi hindi na nagkakaintindihan. Hindi nagkakaintindihan kaya nagiging impulsive yung desisiyon. Nagtatantrums dahil sa desisyon na yun kaya nag-aaway, at yun ang cause ng pagiging hindi masaya. Hindi natin nagawang pagbigyan ang isa't-isa. Hindi natin narinig yung mga needs ng isa't-isa. Hindi natin napahalagahan ang sinasabi natin. Hindi man lang natin naisip na sa isang relationship, vital ang communication. That we should hear each other out. Na dapat iniintindi natin yung isa't-isa.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You could, you could, if you just say you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
You said you're sorry. Napatawad na kita dahil hindi naman ako nagalit o nagtampo sayo. How could I, diba? Hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit hindi mo ko maintindihan. Sana nagsorry ka na lang kasi hindi tayo nagkaintindihan. Sana yung sorry na yun para sa impulsive mong desisyon. Sana yung sorry na yun kasi hindi mo ako kayang mawala sa buhay mo. Sana yun yung dahilan nun. Sana hindi lang dahil sa nangyari nung araw na yun. Sana iba na lang yung dahilan, mas matutuwa pa ko.
If you're out there, If you're somewhere,If you're moving on
I've been waiting for you, Wary since since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I say
Gusto ko lang bumalik sa dati. Yung laging masaya. Yung laging nagkakaintindihan. Yung hindi mahirap kausapin yung isa't-isa. Yung kahit anong mangyari, hindi nakakalimutan ang isa't-isa. Yung marunong magsorry hindi pataasan ng pride. Yung nagbibigayan at hindi nagbabangayan. Yung bawat isa may pang-intindi. Yung hindi nagsasawa at hindi nagkakainisan dahil paulit-ulit. Yung basta masaya. kontrahin man ng lahat, basta ang mahalaga nagkakaintindihan. Basta may TIWALA sa isa't-isa. Tiwalang kakayanin lahat-lahat.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would before you said, it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now
Kung ako ang tatanungin, gusto kong bumalik sa normal. Yung lahat ng effort napapansin. Yung lahat ng nabanggit sa taas ginagawa. Yung limitado ang away. Yung lahat kayang patawarin ng simpleng I love you at i'm sorry ng isa't-isa. Sana bumalik yung mga panahong, hindi mo natitiis kapag umiiyak ako. That you would do everything to make me smile. Na alam mo kung naiinis ako, nagagalit, o masaya kapag bigla akong tumatahimik, Yung mga pagkakataong nag-eeffort ka pang alamin ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Na pinipilit mong alamin kahit yung mga nakatago sa puso ko. Yung assurance.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Alam kong huli na pero sasabihin ko pa rin. Nireregret ko ang lahat ng impulsiveness ko nung birthday ni Yssa. Inaamin kong may mali ako. I assumed things at nagtantrums ako yun ay dahil pakiramdam ko hindi ako mahalaga. Hindi ako napapahalagahan ng tama. Inaamin ko na nginatngat ako ng inggit. Nainis ako sa mga hindi mo nagawa na nagagawa nila.
Come back, come back, come back to me here like
You could, you could, if you just say you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now
Sa hindi ko paghawak sa kamay mo. Sa hindi ko paghalik sayo. Sana maiballik ko. Kung alam ko lang na yun na ang huli, baka niyakap pa kita. Baka mas tinitigan pa kita. Yung tipong pakiramdam mo na, may malaking tigyawat na tumutubo sa mukha mo o may gagambang gumagapang pababa sa noo mo. Baka mas naging masaya pa ko. If I can take it back, I would. I would have smiled more. I would have savor the moment. I would have hugged you more often and I could have whispered more 'I love you's to you.
You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending?
Oh, I thought you'd be here by now, whoa
Thought you'd be here by now
But I guess, everything has to end. Hindi ako sumusuko at hindi rin ako lumalaban. Hahayaan ko na lang lahat. Kung ano man ang mangyayari sa mga susunod na araw, bahala na si God. Kung maka-move on, go. Kung hindi, eh di hindi. Hindi ko pipilitin ang sarili ko sa bagay na ako mismo hindi ko alam ang desisyon. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako lulugar. Bahala na si God. he will handle everything for me.
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Sa mga tropa kong tiyak naman na magre-react sa ginawa ko. I just did this because gusto ko siyang ilabas. Everything I'm keeping. Yung sakit. Yung inis. Yung lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kanya. Yung mga sinisigaw ng puso ko. Yung mga bagay na nagpapaiyak at nagpapabaliw sa akin. Mahirap siya in a way it's like recalling everything. Pero I'd rather do it. At least diba, naibuga ko lahat.
Whatever happens, salamat sa inyong lahat. Kahit sayo kasi nalaman ko kung sino yung talagang andyan. Yung talagang nakakaintindi. Salamat-salamat sa inyo! I know soon enough I'll be better :)
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